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[He was dreaming, he was out in the forest, but this wasn’t like most of the dreams he had that were in the forest. He was fighting someone, but who…? Legato? No! It was---!!] Wolfwood! [His stressed brain works over time as it seems to take everything in at once. He’s in his room. Something cold on his wrist - handcuffs - his ankle too. The end of the fight comes running back to him. Wolfwood was alive and taking safety measures.

Good. He deserved to be chained up like a monster. Just thinking about what he’d done makes his stomach turn. Without even really thinking about it he slides himself up trying to bring his knees to his chest. He should call for Wolfwood, make sure he was alright and to get out of these chains, but… he just couldn’t look him in the face right now. I tried to kill him. Ugh. He lowers his head; afraid he really was going to be sick.

Then sometime after one of his roommates have set him free and he can get to his journal he‘ll put up a filter, although it takes him a long time to speak into it after it goes up.]

[Filtered from Legato // 100% Unhackable]

[At first his speaking is very quick and precise, like he’s rehearsed this. That won’t last long though.] Everyone, I’m sorry, if you spoke or met me recently that… it… it wasn- [A sigh and maybe what could be the sound of a piece of paper being crumpled.] I can’t say it wasn’t me, it was… but I would never… what I said these last couple weeks, I would never normally say or do those things. I am so sorry. So, very sorry. [He not even going to bother to ask you all to forgive him.]

[Filtered to Kaori // 100% Unhackable]

Are you alright? I… I’m so sorry that I hurt you.

[Written to Legato // 100% Filtered.]

[Vash hesitates on this. He’s pretty sure Legato would also rather pretend the last couple weeks didn’t happen, but still, Vash couldn’t do that. He also couldn‘t bring himself to speak it either. So after a long pause he quickly scribbles.]

Thank you.

[This post may or may not have been made from within Vash’s closet. He knows he has to go back outside at some point - even just to make sure Legato hasn’t gone on a rampage - he’s just not ready to face people yet.]

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Even so, most people didn't try to hurt people.

That may be true, but I do not think that is something for which you may be blamed. It is only through the Malnosso's manipulation that you had acted in such a manner, yes?

But I still did everything. I still remember all the things I told everyone. That I chose to tell them.

Taking into consideration the sins I have committed in the past, I suppose I understand your desire to apologize. However, just as there are times when a creature does something for which they should be held accountable, there are also times when one cannot be faulted for what they have done.

Tell me, had you the choice in this very moment, would you do or say any of the things you have previously said or done during these past few weeks?

No... but it doesn't take back what I did do.

Neither will apologizing. You cannot change the past.

Not to say there is no point in doing so, of course. Rather, I do not believe this is something anyone here will hold against you, regardless.

I know apologizing won't fix it, but I can't do anything.

I suppose in a case such as this, there is nothing else you can do. It all depends on how other villagers choose to react to this.

After all, if someone were incapable of understanding that the Malnosso had been the true cause of your previous actions, no amount of apologizing would convince them otherwise.

Even though they were the cause, it was still me deciding to do those things. Even if they won't take an apology, it's the least I can do.

Would you feel someone else should be held accountable for things they did while they were in a state of mind different from their usual self?

...no.

Then why is it you hold yourself to a different standard?

...it's complicated.

[Head tilt.] Does it have to be?

Sometimes, it just is.

I don't see why. Perhaps I simply cannot understand your manner of thinking in regards to this matter.

I guess, emotions can be too hard to explain.

Particularly when the creature you are trying to explain them to has none of their own to compare.

Well, one day maybe you'll understand. I know you have some emotions as you care about other's safety. We just need to work on making them grow a little. [Yes, emo or not, he still remembers how he wants to help everyone else.]

[And yet even after two weeks with emotions, she still didn't understand them at all.] ...perhaps.

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