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Vash the Stampede ([personal profile] goldenglasses) wrote2010-12-05 05:09 pm

[Action for house/Voice]

[He was dreaming, he was out in the forest, but this wasn’t like most of the dreams he had that were in the forest. He was fighting someone, but who…? Legato? No! It was---!!] Wolfwood! [His stressed brain works over time as it seems to take everything in at once. He’s in his room. Something cold on his wrist - handcuffs - his ankle too. The end of the fight comes running back to him. Wolfwood was alive and taking safety measures.

Good. He deserved to be chained up like a monster. Just thinking about what he’d done makes his stomach turn. Without even really thinking about it he slides himself up trying to bring his knees to his chest. He should call for Wolfwood, make sure he was alright and to get out of these chains, but… he just couldn’t look him in the face right now. I tried to kill him. Ugh. He lowers his head; afraid he really was going to be sick.

Then sometime after one of his roommates have set him free and he can get to his journal he‘ll put up a filter, although it takes him a long time to speak into it after it goes up.]


[Filtered from Legato // 100% Unhackable]

[At first his speaking is very quick and precise, like he’s rehearsed this. That won’t last long though.] Everyone, I’m sorry, if you spoke or met me recently that… it… it wasn- [A sigh and maybe what could be the sound of a piece of paper being crumpled.] I can’t say it wasn’t me, it was… but I would never… what I said these last couple weeks, I would never normally say or do those things. I am so sorry. So, very sorry. [He not even going to bother to ask you all to forgive him.]

[Filtered to Kaori // 100% Unhackable]

Are you alright? I… I’m so sorry that I hurt you.

[Written to Legato // 100% Filtered.]

[Vash hesitates on this. He’s pretty sure Legato would also rather pretend the last couple weeks didn’t happen, but still, Vash couldn’t do that. He also couldn‘t bring himself to speak it either. So after a long pause he quickly scribbles.]

Thank you.

[This post may or may not have been made from within Vash’s closet. He knows he has to go back outside at some point - even just to make sure Legato hasn’t gone on a rampage - he’s just not ready to face people yet.]

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[identity profile] derek-bliss.livejournal.com 2010-12-06 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, and when you aren't in your right mind, Vash, you're going to do shit that'll make you feel like you do right now after it's over. Your thinking changes, and so will everything else you do because of it.

Trust me; I know what it's like. Not saying you shouldn't be upset with what happened--just saying that you shouldn't be blaming yourself for it.

Lemme just remind you of something. Just think about it for a while.

What happened with Jack?

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[identity profile] derek-bliss.livejournal.com 2010-12-06 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Jack. The guy we went and rescued from the desert.

And who also went a bit crazy and so actually considered leaving McCoy out there and/or killing in exchange for his own freedom.

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[identity profile] derek-bliss.livejournal.com 2010-12-06 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
Forgiven him for not being in his right mind at the time yet?

[Voice] [Private]

[identity profile] derek-bliss.livejournal.com 2010-12-06 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
All right then. Just remember that, and remember why. If he can be forgiven, so can you.

And already are.

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[identity profile] derek-bliss.livejournal.com 2010-12-06 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
Come have a drink with me when you're feeling better. Maybe I'll teach you to shoot pool if you don't already know how.